Generational Sin

When my Mom, was growing up,
she saw her father, beat her mother!
Then, my Mom got married to a man,
who beat her down with words, instead of fists!
She told me, she accepted it...because at least, he didn't hit!
I still remember...Dad violently berating her,
as she ran away...crying, hiding!
He shrugged his shoulders...and said to me,
"Oh well! Eat your dinner!"
Such aloofness...tied my hands...and taped my mouth!
Hypocrisy...was his fool's-gold crown!
The king of his castle, with the face of a jester,
leaving us, on shifting ground!
It took so long, for me to trust a man, a Christian, a believer!
He...to me...was like a smiling-in-church, kind of cartoon character,
pretending to be happy! Yet, causing all the chaos!
Like my sister, who never takes responsibility, for her mess!
Stabbing with her knife! Then, questioning, why you've bled!
Like my Mom, who enables them,
making excuses, saying, "They just don't know!"
Yet, expecting me, to put on, my perfect glow!
They made small things, big...and big things, small!
Never dealing with bad behavior...because if they did,
they'd have to admit, they weren't perfect!
But if the honest ones, ever pointed it out, hoping for some
accountability, so that, the rudeness would stop,
the honest ones (or the victims) would be belittled
and accused of unforgiveness!
Wow! Even as a child, I knew how backwards that was!
As the Bible says, 'A little leaven, ruins the whole loaf of bread!'
So, the sick cycle continued!
The honest ones, had to stay silent!
While, the selfish, foolish ones grew more and more
selfish and foolish! Their prideful hearts, growing so hard,
that they couldn't understand or care, that other people had feelings!
It was all about them! Their attitude was...
'I can demean you, all I want...but...how dare you, get hurt!'
"There's no perfect family! Bring it up...and you're the jerk!"
They call themselves, 'Christians!' Yet, they have no love!
They're like clanging gongs, placing themselves, above!
I grew up, balancing on teeter-totters...without any spotters...
except for the goodness and grace of God,
who kept reminding me, throughout my life,
of how important I was.
God kept turning my head, away from them and towards Him.
And every time, I prayed for unity, He said, "Leave them!"
My siblings brought their destructive behavior into their marriages...
belittling their spouses and their children,
with no accountability...because they never learned as kids,
how to have right relationship!
And so, the cycle continues,
acting like empty, white-washed tombs,
objectifying one another,
tearing down...what was meant to be built up!
We were meant to be built up, on the strong foundation of God's love!
If you keep sweeping bad behavior under the rug...
guess what? It doesn't leave! It gets worse!
If all you care about is having a bunch of strangers in your church,
think that you have the perfect household, while you refuse to clean the dirt...
guess what? You bring on a curse!
My family's threshold is...self-righteousness!
And Satan's, got more then his foot, in the doorway!