Waiting

I was running to a dream,
towards the door...closing!
Hit so hard, I fell backwards,
to the ground!
There I was, face up,
gazing around...shell-shocked!
Saw the lights, twinkling so bright,
I closed my eyes.
I felt delicate...like a newborn,
grasping for my mother's arms,
reckless, yet powerless,
wanting something,
but not knowing, what it truly was!
I know now, that,
what was behind that door,
was never meant to be mine!
Busy, blurs the vision,
as tunnels, leave you blind!
Sometimes, God makes us, to lie down...
but in the pasture, we feel bound,
wanting to move,
wanting to prove,
we're just as good,
as someone else!
Waiting...makes me feel,
like my dreams, are so obscure,
they could never be!
Would they ever be?
Yet, God whispers,
"Trust in me!"
Faith, is full of learning!
Though, we're still,
we're always moving,
like the molecules in a table,
microscopic...and yet able,
to play a part, in a plan,
put in place,
before time began!
I never felt the pressure...
so strong!
The paradox of waiting,
feels so right...and yet,
so wrong!
Is there something else, to seek?
Should I...just take a leap?
Yet, I feel God pushing me,
just to lie down!
So, I'll take a rest,
trusting, He'll lead me,
towards my next quest!
Why does the valley,
have to be so wide?
Wishing, from peak to peak,
I could fly!
Yet, I know,
sometimes the lows,
have more wisdom,
than all of those peaks,
combined!
So, I'll close my eyes...
and wait on his time,
trusting in the leadership,
of the divine!